Arugono's Thoughts

Wheeeee................... A good week! Managed to squirm away from my office and do some fun stuff like drive my vehicle, sleep and play games.

This sounds familiar but very true for us NSFs:
Price of losing a rifle cleaning kit: $50
Price of 1 Company Cohesion Night: $100+
Price of losing a bet with your superior: 1 meal
Look on the Face of a NSF upon getting his Pink IC: Priceless!

There are some problems money can solve, for everything else there is ORD!

ORD Loh!!!!!!!!!!! In 150+++days

Ian

:) :P

Only emptiness remains..............

The void in me is growing but with my friends, i will survive this tough time and prevail a better man

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Finally, a day where everything is going well.
Today, I achieved much. Managed to complete my work before six, rush to Orchard to meet up with Selene and Jon Dave and then find Marcus and Clarence for dinner. The ironic thing is I had dinner in all three places: camp, BK Borders and with Marc and Clarence. Camp dinner was partially eaten as I was not that hungry, Jon Dave treated me to a Iced Milo and Fries, had a cheese cake and a iced tea with Marc and Clarence.

It is not so much what I did with Jon Dave ande Selene or with Marc and Clarence that was fun or unusual but the warm fuzzy feeling of being with friends, being with people you want to be be with. Thats what makes me happy. A simple dinner with friends means more than days off or nights off. If no one is free to help me spend the day off, then it is pointless.

Thanks Jon, Selene, Marcus and Clarence! You really uplifted my spirits. Looking forward to seeing all of you and many more soon.

Arugono Vesterqist

Made some changes

no idea what to blog. Sick of the hunger for approval from my superiors, sick of tension and sick of hearing that i owe Singapore anything. The government paid for my education and health care but I cannot possible have consumed so much money that i deserve to be overworked, underpaid and treated like a dog.

The positive NS experience is becoming a nightmare. All I believe in is rubbish. No one wants to work. I may be ranting but really I am sick of having nightmares of work. I try too hard to please others and end up losing what i care about most: my friends.

Jieni, I am really sorry for being an irritating person. Sorry for being rude to Joel and Sherlynn. Sorry for insulting your pride by paying for everything. Sorry for not respecting you and your wishes.
Can we still be friends?

Musical inspiration: Toy Soldiers by Martika
Blogging Mood: Confused and Tired

Who can say I have not done my job? I stay in the office working from 7 am to ten pm. I leave only to get lunch and dinner. Yet, it is my fault when things go bad. Maybe I should juz give up and let things happen. I need a break from the madness called military regimentation. I need to spend time with those who I really care about and not those I work with. Not that my colleagues are bad or not worth spending time with but I see them everyday.

Work, why work hard when all you get is more work and bad comments.

Going through a tough time now. Sorry if I have hurt anyone in the process.

I dun know whether to be happy that I am healthy and working or sad that i cannot downgrade and slack my military obligations away. I am obliged to serve my nation and kill the freaks of nature who have the audacity to invade my homeland. Yet, everyone around me says war is next to impossible. It is more likely to see William Hung win American Idol than see a war break out in Singapore whether through invasion or other means.

Funny, I tried so hard but I still am back at square one. My life is a circle: I can never escape the inevitability of returning to my starting point.

Now, praying for a miracle. Anything that can uplift my spirits and restore my love of life.

Ian

Lets see.....

The past week has been very 'relaxing' for me. I was not stressed by anyone but myself. Deadlines on emails, manys things to cram into my 1 megabyte of memory space of a brain, personal issues ( i am fat, tired and overworked). Insomia has yet to consume me but the end is soon. The final throes of my resistance to mental breakdown are about to die!

No time to exercise, snacking, denial has made me fat and depressed. I so need to start a program in my work place to exercise and relax.